11/5/13 Aching with a Smile on my face!!

Oh my aching knees!  I am struggling every day it seems with these aching knees; with my eating/not eating habits; with exercise in general; with worry and stress….but I’m HAPPY!

I know it’s true that I absolutely can’t exercise or diet or even de-stress at anyone else’s pace or level…that I must do it on my own in my own way listening to my body, etc.!  I get so bad about that!  I sometimes just don’t like what my body/system is telling me so I overdo which causes injury which causes stalling in my progress or, worse yet, I get frustrated and I UNDERDO, over-eat and just sort of give up….but, so far, only for a short time and I pull up those darned boot straps again and march on……  So, today, I’m, yet again, MARCHING ON!!!!

Today I’m looking at this picture in TWO WAYS!  First (and always first) all I see is the horrifically HUGE upper arm…it’s distorted and disgusting….  But, if I STOP THAT, and look again, I see me…  and I see some self-pride, and fun.  I was walking with my sister and my bestest buddy Terrie…and feeling so happy to be with them…and I think it shows in this picture.  Shame on me for ever seeing anything but
the good of this!  OX OX